Why Trista Sutter suddenly left the Special Forces: what she didn't see

Trista SutterExit from special forces He made a surprise appearance on TV, but it turns out there's a lot going on behind the scenes that viewers didn't see on the Wednesday, January 15, episode.

“When I came back from the beach the first day, I was in hypothermic shock. My lips were turning blue in the car on the way back. It was bad. I was very lethargic,” Sutter, 53, revealed in an exclusive interview with Us Weekly. “It was really scary.”

Not long In Wednesday's episodesaid the Bachelor's OG special forces The soldiers she wanted to leave behind. According to Sutter, she realized it was time to look for a mirror room that wasn't vented.

“I wanted to get to the end. I really did. I wasn't one of those people who wanted to sign up for the show and get paid on day one, you know what I mean? I wanted to challenge myself as much as possible, and that's an opportunity that only comes around once in a while,” she said. Age and the mirror room are part of it, I wanted to get to that.” we. “I thought it would take longer, but because of what happened to me, they pulled me out and I was able to connect on a human level with Billy (Bellingham) and S (Jovon Quarles).”

Sutter also noted his communication with Private Rudy Reyes.

“When I was on the beach, I stopped Rudy and said, 'I think I'm going to pass out.' And he says, 'Well, what do you want to do?' And I say, 'I'd love to see a doctor.' And he says, 'Well, you can't, if you see Doctor, you are withdrawing voluntarily.” …And he says, “I’m sorry, you either have to use VW or continue.” “Well, I’m not ready to go home,” she explained. we. “So I kept going and he said after the mirror room: ‘I’m really proud of you.’ I thought you were going to quit on the beach, but you didn’t and you kept going, and this is very important and I am very proud of you.”

Sutter called the validation she received from DS a reward — and a sign that she may have accomplished what she set out to do on the show, despite her quick exit.

“They saw that I was giving one hundred percent — even though one hundred percent wasn't as great as professional athletes' Carey Hart“I was doing my best,” she continued. “So just knowing that they saw that I was giving one hundred percent meant a lot to me. I have a lot of respect for them and what they gave to our country (and) their countries. Connecting with them was very important to me.”

The reality TV personality spoke in more detail regarding her decision to exit the show, explaining that she took a long bath to warm up after returning from the beach.

She said: “Before we started filming (again), I saw the number 444, and I believe in the numbers of angels, guardian angels, and God, and I have great faith in all of that.” “I went into it knowing or thinking my guardian angels were kind of watching over me and I went to bed. I woke up to bangs — we all woke up — and immediately peace came over me and I said, ‘You’re good.’ I got a lot out of those two days. Although “It's only been two days and it's been like a lifetime.”

Sutter added that the staff warned her that things would become more difficult if she stayed and went forward with the show.

“And it was really hard!” I continued. “Herd running – running with the herd, which is basically a third of my body weight – was really hard. I was never a runner and those were the hard parts, the tasks I was kind of excited about and I thought I did well even though I didn’t succeed.” Technically.

On the show, Sutter said she didn't want to be a “burden” to any of her co-stars.

“I wanted to challenge myself but (not) burden others to help me,” she said. we From observation. “They didn't have to help me. golden (tate) He was carrying my suitcase—you could see it at one point by the bridge—he was carrying two suitcases, one of which was mine. And I remember saying to him, “I think I'll go.” It's like, “Are you sure?” And remember, this is when we're running around trying to get ready to go, like, go, go.

Sutter reiterated that even though she was only on the show for a short time, it was a very satisfying experience. She noted that other contestants Denise Richards (who was the second recruit to leave) likely felt the same way.

“I have great respect for what Denise was able to accomplish and she was the second one to leave,” Sutter said. “Everyone has a different purpose for being there. Everyone has their own individual reasons for leaving, and it doesn't take anything away from who they are and what they're trying to achieve.

Sutter concluded that she regained her “confidence”—as an individual and an athlete—as a result of her appearance on the series.

“I've learned that I can do hard things if I put my mind to it. Part of me regrets leaving when I did, now that I've seen everything they've gone through,” she said. “But I keep trying to remind myself of what I felt in that moment and that peace.” Which overwhelmed me, (how I did it) and challenging myself with the experience and all the people I met, and the camaraderie. I'm trying to be grateful for it all, but it's hard. I like to wake up and say, “Yes, whatever.” Screw that piece. Keep going!'”

special forces It airs on Fox Wednesday at 8pm ET.